Mother’s Know
The most precious part of being a mom is when we look our children in the eyes. And see them way beyond who they are in that moment.
Mom’s know the heart and soul of our children. It’s a deep knowing, and when we can catch their gaze, and it lingers for a moment, we understand how intertwined our journey’s are. In these moments with our kids, it fills us with so much love, it often bubbles over, because it’s too much to hold inside our bodies, and it drips out of our eyes.
I love having this moment with my kids. They happen all the time when children are little, but become more rare as they get older.
Alex and Tanner were used to me looking at them, and quietly tearing up. Little walking miracles they are. My miracles. And They understand what is being communicated more than the little kids do. Mom’s adoring them. Being grateful for them. Loving them. Appreciating all that had to happen to bring them into the world and land us together.
I had this moment with Tanner the day before he died. I’m so glad I had it. It gives me the knowing that we had a moment of soul connection hours before he left. It’s some ridiculously small consolation that he got to see and feel how much I loved him.
But it’s also this spot, this mother child connection point, that holds the biggest, deepest, well of grief for me.
I love you son. Infinitely.
Tanner David Lamb