Full Moon in Pisces

PISCES FULL MOON CONJUNCT SATURN

I was watching Doc Martin last night and a conversation on the show really struck me.

It was between the Doc (main character) and Luisa (his on again off again love interest )

The show is set in a small town with a tight knit community.

Based on some pretty solid evidence, they suspect a woman, Caroline, is drinking too much.

Luisa approaches the Doc to get advice on how to help her friend. Here’s the dialogue…

Luisa; “There’s a friend of mine, I think she might be drinking too much, she’s having a hard time at the moment. She’s asked me to meet her for a drink later, and I’d just appreciate some help with how to tackle it”

Doc “well for starters, don’t meet her for a drink”

Luisa “fair point… but say technically speaking, how many units are too much?”

Doc “does it matter, you obviously think it’s too much or you wouldn’t be asking”

Admittedly, he’s a bit brusque. But in this case, because he is a Doctor, he is clear any alcohol at this point is too much. And is genuinely answering her question.

Then Luisa gets upset and accuses him of always ruining everything when she tries to connect with him. They have a few words and she storms off.

This struck me because this is a spot I’m always trying to navigate. Especially with my big hearted, sometimes vulnerable daughter.

I’ve been mapping this dynamic where as a culture we seem to want people to validate us in our fantasy, or incorrect summation of events and circumstances. And we feel betrayed and let down when they don’t join in *collude?* with us.

We take swiftly delivered truths to offense.

Then, when someone stands by the truth, we feel further injured and unseen. And I believe that it’s genuine… like it touches some previous inner wound.

I spoke this struggle to my daughter in a moment of connection.

“Sometimes I feel like you are asking me to affirm something when I can see you aren’t in honest self reflection about it. And I really struggle to do that because I don’t think it’s best for you”

She asked me “like delusion?”

And I said, “well, not exactly, but I suppose it could be in some cases”.

To which she begins to tell me that there’s a “trend of girls her age knowingly being delusional over boys or something, and broadcasting it like it’s cute”. There was even a trendy word for it. “Delulu”.

I’m glad she told me because I learned that she thinks it’s ridiculous. I was so relieved.

It also gave me a window into this upcoming generation and some of the concerning trends I see around “affirming a person’s reality” at all costs.

It also gave me pause to look at the way I receive brusquely delivered truths and sometimes get defensive, without seeing the love and good intention behind it.

Has it always been this way? Was there a time when we spoke more direct and honestly?

I’ve been really tracking this spot of how to stay in self honesty, how to be honest, yet also stay in attunement with others around me.

Like walking a balance beam, it’s tricky, and I don’t always do it well.

Eventually Doc Martin and Luisa get together. Their relationship becomes a perfect mirror of this dynamic of honesty vs over responsibility for other’s feelings. One of the hooks of the show is how often he ends up revealing deep truths to her with his brusqueness that makes her take a deeper look at her identity as a “Good Woman”. It reveals her humanity, and as she says her “obsession that everyone be normal.”

It also reveals how much we prize that our communications come gift wrapped in flowery language. And the potency of not doing that. Luisa frequently admired this in his interactions with others, but not with her.

It’s a whole ball of yarn to untangle. I’ve come to the conclusion that we need a balance of both. That sometimes we need to have honest reflections, and sometimes we need to be handled with care.

Building the inner infrastructure for honest reflections and being loving while I offer them to others has been a big part my work this year as I travel with my word….Attunement.

Interestingly, this is up for our Full Moon in Pisces on August 30-31st. (And has been most of the year with Saturn in Pisces)

Saturn will not abide “Delulu”. With him in the sign that most represents fantasy, escape, illusion, delusion, etc. this dynamic may be up for a lot of us to examine.

We can all expect that if we haven’t been totally honest with ourselves, if we are out of alignment, a loving adjustment by The Cosmic Sky Daddy, may be on to be on the horizon.

With Neptune co-present in Pisces all year, we have lots of support in the endeavor of breaking out of the places we are stuck in fantasy, and invested in illusion rather than what “is”.

I recently did an inventory of my relationships going all the way back to my first crushes. It was amazing how much I used self delusion and fantasy as a tool to keep my heart either open or closed.

I would re-write events so that I could either stay in connection….Like how I had a ten year relationship with the ghost of my partner’s potential, and not him. Rather than feel the heartbreak around the fact that we were not a true match.

Or so that I could keep my heart closed… like that time I demonized my father as a teenager, by mentally embellishing his wrong doing, and outsizing my responses. Allowing me to bypass the deep hurt I felt at my parents separation, and how that touched my abandonment wound.

On both occasions, I simply couldn’t be with the “isness” of the situation, and ended up hurting myself and others through living in this level of fantasy.

Nobody is better at giving us a reality check than Saturn. And while these can sometimes be hard truths to face within ourselves. It’s always always worth it.

Just remember as we move through this portal, to prioritize connection if your “come to Jesus moment” involves another person. It has the potential to really strengthen our bonds and bring us more understanding. Not less.

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