Hello Darkness My Old Friend
Hello Darkness My Old Friend
As I move towards my second Sade Sati period, in a distinctly Saturnine Life, so much is shifting. I am beginning to see what an ally Saturn has become. And how through his mentorship, all of the things I desire, can be made manifest. It is also the things Saturn governs that have posed my greatest challenges. As an A.D.D. sufferer, I struggle with things like discipline, organization, and healthy responsibility.
Sade Sati 7+1⁄2 years long period of Shani.
Śanaiśchara (Shani) refers to the divine personification of the planet Saturn in Hinduism. Wikipedia states “Shani (Saturn) is a male Hindu deity in the Puranas, whose iconography consists of a black figure carrying a sword or danda (sceptre) and sitting on a Crow.[5][6] He is the god of Karma (deeds), justice, and retribution and delivers results depending upon one's thoughts, speech, and deeds (karma).[7] Shani is the controller of longevity, misery, sorrow, old age, discipline, restriction, responsibility, delays, ambition, leadership, authority, humility, integrity, and wisdom born of experience. He also signifies spiritual asceticism, penance, discipline, and conscientious work.”
Sade-Sati, begins when Saturn moves into the sign just before the sign that houses our natal moon and ends after Saturn exits the sign after our Natal Moon.
In regards to the Sade-Sati period, “Saturn, the karaka for hard work, discipline, old age and authority, will show results based on how the individual has lived his/her life up till that point. If the person has been disciplined and worked hard, this is the moment Saturn shows its rewards. Sade sati's heaviest challenges during this time, and how the individual deals with it, sets the tone for the next 22.5 years as Saturn starts to move around the twelve houses again”.
I am going to begin a Sadi-Sati journal. In service to everyone under the heavy influence of Saturn. While he is the Lord of Karma, I believe he gets a bad rap. He is so much more. My hope is, by writing about his allyship, we can remove some of the heavy stigma our ringed friend suffers from. And begin to identify the places he is working FOR us. In service to our evolution. Even if it doesn’t “feel good”.
Entry #1
Due to recent events, I’ve been seeing and feeling just how much responsibility there is to take in my life. Responsibility I’d either side-stepped, or allowed someone else to assume. Not just for mundane things like paying the bills, or organizing the schedules, that’s not what I’m pointing too. I’m pointing to the responsibility for how life is showing up for me. For how I am framing and engaging with my circumstances. Responsibility for my happiness, satisfaction and overall well-being.
The more I own all of my choices, in every area, from the minutiae, to the major, the more freedom I have.
I’ve begun to realize that there are places I was really turning myself inside out to not take the “blame”, because I had framed it as an issue of “fault” rather than humans being human.
What a fruitless endeavor that was. I can’t believe how much of my life force has been siphoned off trying to avoid responsibility, and saddle someone else with the burden of carrying my struggles. Or, on the flipside, the places I have taken over-responsibility, as if I can control every single area of my life, control every single response, reduce the impact of upset someone else might feel when faced with their own responsibilities.
When I give everyone around me the same permission to be human that I give myself, I am free to take responsibility for my part, and allow others to be responsible for what is theirs. It feels really clean. And freeing.
Thank you Saturn, for helping me to awaken to how the issue of responsibility shows up in my life.
*there is an entire world of topics to talk about regarding Saturn, Shani, & Sade-Sati. I've linked an article here for those interested in learning more about this period.
